Pop of Paisley

Paisley Kimono - Charolette Russe

Romper- Forever 21

Gladiator Sandals - Charolette Russe

Gold Layered Necklace - H&M 

Let's Play Ketchup (Catch Up)

I've decided to make some life changes.  I've been 29 for almost two months and it hit me. I need to get myself together FOR REAL.  It's time out for trying to fit in just for the sake of fitting in.  It's time for me to live the kind of life I want to live ... apologetically. 

 

I need to figure out: What makes me happy? What to do genuinely love doing?  What motivates me?  What is my passion?  What are my strengths?  What are my dealbreakers? What is are my weak areas?  How can I strengthen them?  What are my goals? 

 

Life is a gift and we only get one chance at it.  Nobody knows how much time they have. I don't want to look back and have a life full of regrets and missed opportunities. 

 

There some changes coming. 

 

I'm excited about them.

Boho Mojo

Floppy Hat: Forever 21

Shirt: Forever 21

Statement Necklace : Forever 21

Distressed Boyfriend Jeans: Charlotte Russe

Leopard Print Booties: Charlotte Russe

Fringe Purse : Windsor

Wrist Cuff : Forever 21

Yesterday was so gloomy and rainy. The over cast made it seem like it was bright outside at some points but it was just an ugly day. Despite the weather, I was determined to make the most of my off day, so I spiced up this simple look with cheetah booties, a fringe bag, a floppy hat, and a gold statement necklace. 

A Reminder ...

I've decided to read this quote everyday. Just thought I would share it. 

Online Dating ...or NAH

As most of you who read my blog already know ... I work A L O T.  Meeting people was never been really easy for me in the first place, but since I started working this 50+ hours a week, it has been even harder to score a date.  So I'm gonna keep it 100.  I set up an Online Dating Account.

 

Yeah I did it. LOL.

 

Overall, the experience so far, has been negative.  I haven't met anyone that I could see myself in a committed relationship with.  Hell, I haven't even met a guy that I would want to date twice.  I think the main reason why is because no one (that I have met yet) seems to want a relationship. To me, to me, to me ... it seems like all these guys want is a random hook-up or a steady sex partner, NOT A GIRLFRIEND. 

 

It's really quite discouraging.  I thought I would at least come across somebody that would be good for some conversation. I'm really starting to believe that technology has handicapped us as a society.  The men that I have encountered cannot hold a decent convo to save their lives.  When I ask them the simplest of questions like, "Can you tell me a little about yourself? What are your interest?" They can't even answer that!!

 

Man I miss the days when a guy had to actually approach a girl in person, at the skating rink or the mall, while she was with her friends.  Back then, before social media, people knew how to engage in social interactions.  We knew how to just live and enjoy the moment without a phone in our hands. BUT that is another rant for another time ...

 

 

Another thing that I've had happen a lot is that these guys don't look anything like their pictures. LOL.  They are fatter, shorter, missing hair or teeth, and most of the time older. Some of the men have been out of high school for more than a decade and are still using their senior pics. LOL.  I can't deal.

 

Lastly, most of these gentlemen are married or in live-in relationships, fronting like they don't have anybody while their spouse is at work. I'm gonna be honest. I've had one guys wife call me. The ish was crazy. What is even worse that the dude still tries to get in contact with me to this day. I don't know how he got around being blocked.

 

But with all of that negative stuff being said ... I'm probably going to keep my profile up for a while.  I know, crazy right?  But the thing is ... it's kind of addicting.  I like when I get a hit even though, so far, it hasn't panned out to be much. I'm hopeful that maybe one day something will pop off.

 

We'll see. 

The Pity Party Is OVER

Some time has passed since I wrote my last post and I went back and forth with the notion of taking it down, but I want to be as real on here (my journal) as possible and all days aren't GOOD days. Some days I get down right depressed and unhappy with where I am in life. 

But the truth of the matter is that I'm blessed to be alive, and everyday that I am living is a chance for me to change my situation, to be who I want to be, and do what I want to do.

 

Sometimes it doesn't feel that way though.  I'm thankful for GOD putting people in my path to remind me that life is a journey.  There will be valleys along the way, BUT there will also be mountains.  Most often times, the mountains will be directly after being in a valley.  That is why it will seem so hard to move up.  The path down is easy.  There is nothing opposing you.  The travel upward will be much harder.  The gravity will fight you with every step.  In the end, you will be stronger and more grateful because of the effort and time that was put forth.  The reward will be greater.

 

Nothing worth having is easy or comes overnight.  Things will change.  Better days are ahead for me and for you.

Happy Valentine's Day

Happy V Day!!! Whether you have someone special in your life or not, today is the day that we celebrate LOVE. Love yourself and love others. Smooches.